This is the third installment to my 2012 Instagram Year In Review. Unlike the previous entries, it only covers one month because this is when I started Instagraming a lot. These are from my @elasticback account, not my @naysayerskate account...
Here are the links to the previous posts:
2012 Instagram Year In Review: January - March
2012 Instagram Year In Review: April - July
Next up: September.
Date: 8.5.12
Additional Comment: This was taken at the abandoned mental hospital in Staten Island. Not sure what this particular building used to be.
Date: 8.5.12
Caption: <3
Geo-tag: ISHTA Yoga
Additional Comment: Jessica is the best yoga teacher...love her class. I always feel so great after.
Date: 8.7.12
Caption: Dance Party! @mariairam @fallanator
Geo-tag: Trophy Bar
Additional Comment: It was Maria's birthday, so a bunch of us met at Lucky Dog and a few of us ended up going to Trophy Bar after. It was pretty dead, but we held it down on the dance floor anyway.
Date: 8.7.12
Caption: Zombie gaze...foregoing sleep is way harder after a day of skating and night of dancing. Hopefully I can make it through the day...
Additional Comment: Totally forgot that I had work super early the next morning before spending the night dancing and getting home a couple hours before I had to be up. Pulled an all-nighter.
Date: 8.7.12
Caption: Cranes lifting crazed loads...
Date: 8.7.12
Caption: Totally just fell in love with this puppy I just saw at Tompkins. Husky/Collie/German Shepherd mix.
Geo-tag: Tompkins Square Park
Additional Comment: I want to cuddle this dog forever.
Date: 8.7.12
Caption: We in there. @akmos
Additional Comment: Andy and I stopped by Juicy Lucy before heading to a party at Moo Shoes where we went in on some free vegan shortcake samplers.
Date: 8.9.12
Caption: I dun diddit...
Geo-tag: Le Bain
Additional Comment: This was my first time going to Le Bain. When I saw that they had a pool on the dance floor, I had to get in there.
Date: 8.9.12
Additional Comment: Nadine controls the lighting and stuff at Le Bain.
Date: 8.9.12
Caption: Cats!
Tags: #adoptus #aspca
Additional Comment: I love cats...wish I could adopt one/some.
Date: 8.12.12
Additional Comment: One of Bilk & Nicole's cats, Grey.
Date: 8.12.12
Geo-tag: Teany
Additional Comment: We trippy, mane!
Date: 8.13.12
Additional Comment: Was doing something fancy that day...maybe had an interview or something. Still skated.
Date: 8.13.12
Caption: Jon Wagner's birthday. @stillweii
@popskeet
Additional Comment: Jumped in the photobooth at The Bushwick Country Club.
Date: 8.14.12
Additional Comment: Taking the ferry back and fourth to the city every day kinda sucks, but you can't really beat the view.
Date: 8.14.12
Additional Comment: Taken from the rooftop of some building Laetitia was temporarily staying at in Soho.
Date: 8.15.12
Tags: #bushwick #stillraining
Additional Comment: Looking west toward the city from in front of The Loom.
Date: 8.16.12
Tags: #grainy
Additional Comment: At Brooklyn Fireproof in Bushwick.
Date: 8.18.12
Caption: My captors let me free... @essy_munsta @danielgeorgeking
Additional Comment: Moving stuff from storage to the new KCDC and had to ride in the back because no room in the front. It was pitch black until they let me out at each stop.
Date: 8.20.12
Caption: Sometimes my mom sings to me on my voicemail...
Tags: #imissher
Additional Comment: I love my mom.
Date: 8.22.12
Caption: Rooftoppin'
Additional Comment: I spend a lot of time on rooftops.
Date: 8.25.12
Caption: Watching these homies for the next 5 days.
Tags: #housesitting #catsitting #prospectheights #brooklyn
Additional Comment: House/cat sat for Bilk & Nicole in Prospect Heights while they went down south on vacation.
Date: 8.26.12
Caption: This is happening right now...
Tags: #catyoga
Additional Comment: Orange is my homie. He chilled with me a lot.
Date: 8.29.12
Caption: Rooftop grillin' with @queenadine @jozimwa & @elliottsp
Additional Comment: Some of my favorite ladies right here...
Date: 8.30.12
Caption: @jozimwa killing it on the dance floor all night...
Additional Comment: Eyes closed, dancing alone amongst everyone else. This night changed a lot.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
2012 Instagram Year In Review: April - July
Here is the second installment to my 2012 Instagram Year In Review. This covers April through July because I didn't seem to post many photos from that time. Again, these are from my @elasticback account. Perhaps I posted more from the @naysayerskate account...
Here is the link to the previous post: 2012 Instagram Year In Review: January - March
I'll be posting month-by-month for the rest of the year because August is about the time that I started posting a lot.
Date: 4.3.12
Caption: Poor Tiger...
Additional Comment: Missing animal flyers are usually sad, yet intriguing to me.
Date: 4.5.12
Caption: For the best viewing of The Colbert Report...
Additional Comment: Usually it is a bummer when you finish whatever it is you are drinking, but in this case, it made a cool effect.
Date: 4.7.12
Caption: I love her! 19 years old and doesn't look a day over 7!
Additional Comment: My heart...haven't seen her in way too long. :(
Date: 4.30.12
Caption: My phone took this picture on its own...just of some light or something, haha. Pretty rad.
Tags: #nofilter
Additional Comment: An accidental, yet impressive yellow to orange gradient.
Date: 5.3.12
Caption: Took this yesterday and forgot...didn't want to crop it, so small it shall be.
Additional Comment: The New York Harbor from the Staten Island Ferry.
Date: 5.4.12
Caption: My homegirl, Jade.
Additional Comment: She's beautiful.
Date: 6.3.12
Caption: @laettie - fruit butcher.
Additional Comment: Laetitia was temporarily renting a room in Washington Heights from this older Hispanic woman that didn't speak any English or French so Laetitia had to go back to her days of doing a student exchange in Mexico when she was 14. Her Spanish was pretty good, actually.
Date: 6.3.12
Caption: The cat's name is Ravioli Devine Green.
Additional Comment: This was on the ferry. Dude actually carried his cat around in a backpack!
Date: 6.8.12
Caption: Fountains or fireworks?
Additional Comment: This was at Columbus Circle.
Date: 6.25.12
Additional Comment: My niece, two of my nephews, and my sister's boyfriend's daughter. They are still too small to climb trees with me...or more likely too scared. I was in trees by their age.
Date: 7.7.12
Geo-tag: Le Baron
Tags: #lights #perspective #dimension #depth #club #lebaron #nyc #nightlife
Additional Comment: This was around the time that I was going to lots of clubs and stuff to dance. Sometimes alone, sometimes with friends.
Date: 7.7.12
Caption: Thought this was cool when I snapped it the other day. Not sure why I didn't post it.
Date: 7.28.12
Caption: My youngest nephew, Jah, turns 2 today. <3 him
Additional Comment: My niece Jasmine is in the background too.
Here is the link to the previous post: 2012 Instagram Year In Review: January - March
I'll be posting month-by-month for the rest of the year because August is about the time that I started posting a lot.
Date: 4.3.12
Caption: Poor Tiger...
Additional Comment: Missing animal flyers are usually sad, yet intriguing to me.
Date: 4.5.12
Caption: For the best viewing of The Colbert Report...
Additional Comment: Usually it is a bummer when you finish whatever it is you are drinking, but in this case, it made a cool effect.
Date: 4.7.12
Caption: I love her! 19 years old and doesn't look a day over 7!
Additional Comment: My heart...haven't seen her in way too long. :(
Date: 4.30.12
Caption: My phone took this picture on its own...just of some light or something, haha. Pretty rad.
Tags: #nofilter
Additional Comment: An accidental, yet impressive yellow to orange gradient.
Date: 5.3.12
Caption: Took this yesterday and forgot...didn't want to crop it, so small it shall be.
Additional Comment: The New York Harbor from the Staten Island Ferry.
Date: 5.4.12
Caption: My homegirl, Jade.
Additional Comment: She's beautiful.
Date: 6.3.12
Caption: @laettie - fruit butcher.
Additional Comment: Laetitia was temporarily renting a room in Washington Heights from this older Hispanic woman that didn't speak any English or French so Laetitia had to go back to her days of doing a student exchange in Mexico when she was 14. Her Spanish was pretty good, actually.
Date: 6.3.12
Caption: The cat's name is Ravioli Devine Green.
Additional Comment: This was on the ferry. Dude actually carried his cat around in a backpack!
Date: 6.8.12
Caption: Fountains or fireworks?
Additional Comment: This was at Columbus Circle.
Date: 6.25.12
Additional Comment: My niece, two of my nephews, and my sister's boyfriend's daughter. They are still too small to climb trees with me...or more likely too scared. I was in trees by their age.
Date: 7.7.12
Geo-tag: Le Baron
Tags: #lights #perspective #dimension #depth #club #lebaron #nyc #nightlife
Additional Comment: This was around the time that I was going to lots of clubs and stuff to dance. Sometimes alone, sometimes with friends.
Date: 7.7.12
Caption: Thought this was cool when I snapped it the other day. Not sure why I didn't post it.
Date: 7.28.12
Caption: My youngest nephew, Jah, turns 2 today. <3 him
Additional Comment: My niece Jasmine is in the background too.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
2012 Instagram Year In Review: January - March
For 2012, Instagram became my primary micro-blogging tool. While I definitely started using it much more in the latter part of the year, and focused mostly on the Naysayer profile earlier on, a lot of cool stuff that happened this year was documented on it. So I decided to do a Year In Review via photos from my Elasticback account. Here is the first installment covering January through March of 2012. These were my favorite posts from that time.
Here are my accounts, in case you haven't seen them:
Personal - @elasticback
Naysayer Skateboards - @naysayerskate
Look out for the April - July post tomorrow...or something.
Date: 1.1.12
Additional Comment: This is some hotel in Flushing, Queens.
Date: 1.1.12
Tags: #queens #EiffelTower #AmericanFlag #hotel #flushing #nyc
Additional Comment: The same hotel as the previous image, but I found the American Flag on the Eiffel Tower humorous.
Date: 1.5.12 Caption: Night at the Museum. Natural History Museum.
Geo-tag: American Museum of Natural History
Tags: #museum #fossils #dinosaurs #afterhours #nyc #manhattan #naturalhistorymuseum #UWS
Additional Comment: I was skating the museum after hours and realized that you could see into the museum from the locked front door...and the dinosaurs were visible!
Date: 1.8.12
Caption: Sunrise over Brooklyn, as seen from the Lower East Side.
Tags: #sunrise #nyc #brooklyn #sky
Date: 1.19.12
Tags: #sunrise #nyc #brooklyn #moon
Additional Comment: When I lived in the LES, I had a pretty epic view from my room. These were a couple of the many sunrises I watched from my bed.
Date: 1.12.12
Geo-tag: Norfolk International Airport (ORF)
Tags: #norfolkinternationalairport #norfolk #virginia #orf #airport
Additional Comment: Went to visit my sister in Virginia Beach.
Date: 1.18.12
Geo-tag: LaGuardia Airport (LGA)
Tags: #landinggear #airplane #lga #queens #usair
Additional Comment: I know that shots from airplanes are kinda cliche, but I enjoy this one because of the visible landing gear. I am pretty sure that is Queens below (or possibly the Bronx).
Date: 1.26.12
Caption: Can't seem to fall asleep before 5am anymore...
Tags: #eyeball #insomnia #cyclops #bed #selfportrait #sleep #eye
Additional Comment: Funny, because I was up until 8am working on this this morning, haha.
Date: 1.29.12
Geo-tag: 169 Bar
Tags: #169bar #alien #discoball #pooltable #billiards #pool #leopardprint
Additional Comment: 169 Bar in the LES is full of all kinds of rad stuff. Not pictured (but Instagrammed, for sure, haha) is the dinosaur decor.
Date: 1.31.12
Tags: #Brooklyn #watertower #silhouette #nyc
Date: 2.3.12
Tags: #sanmateobridge #bayarea #sf #sanfrancisco #bridge #birdseyeview
Additional Comment: On the way into SF for a two week stay to skate with homies.
Date: 2.9.12
Tags: #powerlines #wires #lines #streetgeometry
Additional Comment: There are wires all over SF, be them for cable cars or electricity, there is more above ground that below ground (which is more NYC). It was beautiful in its own regard.
Date: 2.10.12
Caption: I seriously hate AT&T.
Tags: #suckit #throttleservice #dataplan #unlimiteddata #upsell #fail #overit #att
Additional Comment: Sometimes I reply to automated messages.
Date: 2.12.12
Tags: #seagull #bird #sky #sanfracisco #sf
Date: 2.17.12
Tags: #windows #5pointz #queens #LIC #night #lights
Date: 2.18.12
Tags: #sunrise #queens #lic #longislandcity #watertower #building #sky #reflective
Additional Comment: This was on my birthday. I crashed at my homie Jeremy's spot the night before and watched this sunrise from his living room. The reflection was amazing. My birthday was lame, but this was a nice welcoming to the new year.
Date: 2.25.12
Caption: Getting my hair trimmed today for the first time in way too long. I always get anxious that they will cut too much off...
Date: 3.3.12
Caption: My Friday night party consists of soaking in an Epsom Salt bath. Sorry, but it is a private party and you are not invited.
Tags: #sore #bath #epsomsalt #skatingtoomuch #tattoos
Additional Comment: Provocative?
Date: 3.3.12
Caption: My cousin's dog, Coco.
Tags: #chocolatelab #labrador #lab #dog #silhouette
Additional Comment: It was nice having this dog around while my cousin still lived with me. She was so mellow and would chill with me.
Date: 3.4.12
Tags: #helicopter #chopper #sky #clouds #cloudporn
Date: 3.8.12
Caption: DIY.
Geo-tag: WIP
Additional Comment: There were a couple naked girls that they put a white base coat on and had brushes and paint and anyone could go up and paint them.
Date: 3.8.12
Geo-tag: WIP
Additional Comment: Random misplaced cowboy in the middle of the dance floor.
Date: 3.13.12
Caption: Miss this cat. :(
Additional Comment: Kocik! There are few people I love as much as I love this cat.
Date: 3.13.12
Tags: #sunset #cloudporn #sky #Brooklyn #greenpoint #NYC #warehouses #nofilter
Date: 3.13.12
Caption: Cat ball!
Additional Comment: This is Jade. She is lovely...I lived with her for almost a year. I was just visiting when this was taken though.
Date: 3.13.12
Caption: Fire dancer at Le Souk.
Tags: #firedancer #nofilter #lesouk #firejuggler #club #nightclub #westvillage #NYC
Additional Comment: This night was pretty crazed. So much madness going on there that night...
Date: 3.15.12
Caption: Skating around Brooklyn with Brett Nelson in corpse paint. Won $20 on a scratch off. No big deal...
Additional Comment: Brett was filming for some feature he was having on SLAP and wanted to skate around in corpse paint for part of it. I was the only one that came through to skate in face paint with him, however. They accidently used an image of me in corpse paint in the promo image for it instead of him on the site too, haha.
Here are my accounts, in case you haven't seen them:
Personal - @elasticback
Naysayer Skateboards - @naysayerskate
Look out for the April - July post tomorrow...or something.
Date: 1.1.12
Additional Comment: This is some hotel in Flushing, Queens.
Date: 1.1.12
Tags: #queens #EiffelTower #AmericanFlag #hotel #flushing #nyc
Additional Comment: The same hotel as the previous image, but I found the American Flag on the Eiffel Tower humorous.
Date: 1.5.12 Caption: Night at the Museum. Natural History Museum.
Geo-tag: American Museum of Natural History
Tags: #museum #fossils #dinosaurs #afterhours #nyc #manhattan #naturalhistorymuseum #UWS
Additional Comment: I was skating the museum after hours and realized that you could see into the museum from the locked front door...and the dinosaurs were visible!
Date: 1.8.12
Caption: Sunrise over Brooklyn, as seen from the Lower East Side.
Tags: #sunrise #nyc #brooklyn #sky
Date: 1.19.12
Tags: #sunrise #nyc #brooklyn #moon
Additional Comment: When I lived in the LES, I had a pretty epic view from my room. These were a couple of the many sunrises I watched from my bed.
Date: 1.12.12
Geo-tag: Norfolk International Airport (ORF)
Tags: #norfolkinternationalairport #norfolk #virginia #orf #airport
Additional Comment: Went to visit my sister in Virginia Beach.
Date: 1.18.12
Geo-tag: LaGuardia Airport (LGA)
Tags: #landinggear #airplane #lga #queens #usair
Additional Comment: I know that shots from airplanes are kinda cliche, but I enjoy this one because of the visible landing gear. I am pretty sure that is Queens below (or possibly the Bronx).
Date: 1.26.12
Caption: Can't seem to fall asleep before 5am anymore...
Tags: #eyeball #insomnia #cyclops #bed #selfportrait #sleep #eye
Additional Comment: Funny, because I was up until 8am working on this this morning, haha.
Date: 1.29.12
Geo-tag: 169 Bar
Tags: #169bar #alien #discoball #pooltable #billiards #pool #leopardprint
Additional Comment: 169 Bar in the LES is full of all kinds of rad stuff. Not pictured (but Instagrammed, for sure, haha) is the dinosaur decor.
Date: 1.31.12
Tags: #Brooklyn #watertower #silhouette #nyc
Date: 2.3.12
Tags: #sanmateobridge #bayarea #sf #sanfrancisco #bridge #birdseyeview
Additional Comment: On the way into SF for a two week stay to skate with homies.
Date: 2.9.12
Tags: #powerlines #wires #lines #streetgeometry
Additional Comment: There are wires all over SF, be them for cable cars or electricity, there is more above ground that below ground (which is more NYC). It was beautiful in its own regard.
Date: 2.10.12
Caption: I seriously hate AT&T.
Tags: #suckit #throttleservice #dataplan #unlimiteddata #upsell #fail #overit #att
Additional Comment: Sometimes I reply to automated messages.
Date: 2.12.12
Tags: #seagull #bird #sky #sanfracisco #sf
Date: 2.17.12
Tags: #windows #5pointz #queens #LIC #night #lights
Date: 2.18.12
Tags: #sunrise #queens #lic #longislandcity #watertower #building #sky #reflective
Additional Comment: This was on my birthday. I crashed at my homie Jeremy's spot the night before and watched this sunrise from his living room. The reflection was amazing. My birthday was lame, but this was a nice welcoming to the new year.
Date: 2.25.12
Caption: Getting my hair trimmed today for the first time in way too long. I always get anxious that they will cut too much off...
Date: 3.3.12
Caption: My Friday night party consists of soaking in an Epsom Salt bath. Sorry, but it is a private party and you are not invited.
Tags: #sore #bath #epsomsalt #skatingtoomuch #tattoos
Additional Comment: Provocative?
Date: 3.3.12
Caption: My cousin's dog, Coco.
Tags: #chocolatelab #labrador #lab #dog #silhouette
Additional Comment: It was nice having this dog around while my cousin still lived with me. She was so mellow and would chill with me.
Date: 3.4.12
Tags: #helicopter #chopper #sky #clouds #cloudporn
Date: 3.8.12
Caption: DIY.
Geo-tag: WIP
Additional Comment: There were a couple naked girls that they put a white base coat on and had brushes and paint and anyone could go up and paint them.
Date: 3.8.12
Geo-tag: WIP
Additional Comment: Random misplaced cowboy in the middle of the dance floor.
Date: 3.13.12
Caption: Miss this cat. :(
Additional Comment: Kocik! There are few people I love as much as I love this cat.
Date: 3.13.12
Tags: #sunset #cloudporn #sky #Brooklyn #greenpoint #NYC #warehouses #nofilter
Date: 3.13.12
Caption: Cat ball!
Additional Comment: This is Jade. She is lovely...I lived with her for almost a year. I was just visiting when this was taken though.
Date: 3.13.12
Caption: Fire dancer at Le Souk.
Tags: #firedancer #nofilter #lesouk #firejuggler #club #nightclub #westvillage #NYC
Additional Comment: This night was pretty crazed. So much madness going on there that night...
Date: 3.15.12
Caption: Skating around Brooklyn with Brett Nelson in corpse paint. Won $20 on a scratch off. No big deal...
Additional Comment: Brett was filming for some feature he was having on SLAP and wanted to skate around in corpse paint for part of it. I was the only one that came through to skate in face paint with him, however. They accidently used an image of me in corpse paint in the promo image for it instead of him on the site too, haha.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Screen Time In Others' Movies
Do you ever consider the true impact you have on the lives of those around you? Your lovers, your 'best friends,' your co-workers, your family, your digitally-based friends, etc? If each of these people were to have a movie made on their lives, how much screen time would you have? Any?
I sometimes find myself thinking about this and it makes me reassess the value I perceive I have in the lives of those close to me. One's ego is quick to exclaim, "I'll have a ton of screen time with X, Y, & Z"...but how accurate is that? The reality is humbling. And it goes both ways. Who will have leading roles in your movie? For some, whom I'd like to give tons of screen time, in reality would have little, though my internal struggles with those relationships is another story.
The people may not know themselves how much screen time they would give you, but after assessing it, their appreciation (or disregard) for you will shift. As a person with no regular fixtures in my physical life, my movie may be more desolate (like the movie I Am Legend), but with tons of brief cameos.
This subject is a spin off of that one question that surfaces every time we get to a point in our lives when everything seems hopeless. The lonelier times. If I were to die, would anyone care? Would the world change or even notice? If those answers are "no," then what is the point? Some people may be sad at first, but for how long? In these negative times we are simply feeding ourselves negative answers. We need to look outward for the true answers. A friend of mine died a few years ago and while I was very sad initially, eventually life went on as usual. But even to this day, few days go by where he (or a memory or relationship related to him)doesn't cross my mind.
Every day we impact those around us in some way...as hard as that is to believe. We have a certain degree of control there too. Once we become conscious of our impact, we can then alter our roles in the lives of those around us. And I say: go for it! Push for more screen time in the movies of those you love.
Speaking of love (you knew I was going to go there), this is the most significant role in each of our respective movies. This is the co-starring role with the most screen time. This role can also influence the type of movie representing your life (depending on that character), from a drama to a romance...to even a horror! It seems like we spend our whole lives looking for the co-star. We audition many for the role, but finding the right person can seem hopeless at times...or maybe you found them, but they have no interest in your low-budget art house flick. They are looking for something with a bigger budget, something glamourous, something violent and/or dramatic...or maybe something cheesy and predictable. Meanwhile, that role stays un-casted...and thus your movie is incomplete.
Will reading this inspire you to evaluate your relationships and the value of each of those people in your life? Probably not now, maybe never. But when existentially thinking about your life, the choices you made, the people in it, and how you treated them, humor me and give it a shot. Let's work on having more screen time in each other's lives.
xoxo
I sometimes find myself thinking about this and it makes me reassess the value I perceive I have in the lives of those close to me. One's ego is quick to exclaim, "I'll have a ton of screen time with X, Y, & Z"...but how accurate is that? The reality is humbling. And it goes both ways. Who will have leading roles in your movie? For some, whom I'd like to give tons of screen time, in reality would have little, though my internal struggles with those relationships is another story.
The people may not know themselves how much screen time they would give you, but after assessing it, their appreciation (or disregard) for you will shift. As a person with no regular fixtures in my physical life, my movie may be more desolate (like the movie I Am Legend), but with tons of brief cameos.
This subject is a spin off of that one question that surfaces every time we get to a point in our lives when everything seems hopeless. The lonelier times. If I were to die, would anyone care? Would the world change or even notice? If those answers are "no," then what is the point? Some people may be sad at first, but for how long? In these negative times we are simply feeding ourselves negative answers. We need to look outward for the true answers. A friend of mine died a few years ago and while I was very sad initially, eventually life went on as usual. But even to this day, few days go by where he (or a memory or relationship related to him)doesn't cross my mind.
Every day we impact those around us in some way...as hard as that is to believe. We have a certain degree of control there too. Once we become conscious of our impact, we can then alter our roles in the lives of those around us. And I say: go for it! Push for more screen time in the movies of those you love.
Speaking of love (you knew I was going to go there), this is the most significant role in each of our respective movies. This is the co-starring role with the most screen time. This role can also influence the type of movie representing your life (depending on that character), from a drama to a romance...to even a horror! It seems like we spend our whole lives looking for the co-star. We audition many for the role, but finding the right person can seem hopeless at times...or maybe you found them, but they have no interest in your low-budget art house flick. They are looking for something with a bigger budget, something glamourous, something violent and/or dramatic...or maybe something cheesy and predictable. Meanwhile, that role stays un-casted...and thus your movie is incomplete.
Will reading this inspire you to evaluate your relationships and the value of each of those people in your life? Probably not now, maybe never. But when existentially thinking about your life, the choices you made, the people in it, and how you treated them, humor me and give it a shot. Let's work on having more screen time in each other's lives.
xoxo
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Giving Thanks For 2012
Thanksgiving has some pretty sketchy roots and there are many reasons why we should all protest it based on its past transgressions of genocide and such. But I am over it and would rather just turn a blind eye to that today and just focus on what consumer propaganda has tried to make it about: being thankful for what you have and those around you. This makes the holiday inherently insincere, but I just want to publically thank those people in my life who have sincerely made it better in the past year. There are many others who have contributed and I haven’t forgot, but for the sake of being semi-brief, I had to cut many out from my original list and have bundled some. These people have been more than just friends or relatives, they have been amazing, despite any temporary turmoil and differences. I love you all.
Laetitia – It is funny to think about meeting that night long ago when I was dressed as robot to where we are now. Who would have though? The world works in funny ways. From NYC to Paris (twice) and back. It has been a bit of an adventure, and there is much more to come. I will keep this one brief because some things are better left unspoken.
Josephine – There is so much to say here, though much has been said personally, so I won’t reiterate much. Thanks for being in my life. While things have changed between us, you are an incredible part of my life and make me strive to be the best person I can. Your qualities are unmatched and I look forward to seeing you put a strangle hold on life and forcing it to be exactly what you want it to be and nothing less.
Parents
Mom – I know things have been tough for you lately and you really wanted me around, but I am sorry I have been somewhat unavailable. As you know I have been going through my own issues and it has selfishly made me insensitive to yours. I have tried but I know I haven’t been there for you the way I had in the past. It’ll get back to that soon enough. Sometimes when I feel somewhat alone and lost, your consistent calls and random texts saying you love me help ground me and warm my soul. You are an amazing woman and each challenge you make it though is another validation of your strength and courage. You have always made me proud and are a huge part of the person I have become. Remember that always.
Dad – You have always been the unmoving rock. Stable and unwavering. But even rocks are susceptible to weather and erosion. Just as water can get into the cracks and weaken, life can do the same. I know this year has been tough for you and sometimes it is hard to stay as strong as you would wish, but you have been doing great, dad. You have tried to take on everything single-handedly and have done a pretty good job, but (as I have said before), we are all here for you, even if only for moral support. Times like these are what really showcase your character, and you are beaming. Thanks for everything, Baba.
Sisters
Cathey – We may not speak so much these days but I am proud of what you have done and who you are still becoming. We used to fight pretty bad as kids, so I am glad that we became much closer later on. You are a lovely older sister. I would also like to thank you for being a great mom to Jasmine, she is the best niece I could have hoped for. Also, shout out to Mike for being a great compliment to your life. He is hilarious and a good influence.
Parvaneh – Isn’t it funny to think back to when we both sharing a room in that trailer in the middle of the woods or learning how to turn the water back on illegally and imagine where either of us would end up. I don’t think I would have seen us where we are, respectively. It has been a bumpy ride, but we have made it to our separate destinations relatively unscathed. Thanks for giving me Eman, The Worm, and Jah as 3 beautiful nephews and for hanging in there when all seemed lost.
Tanty + Danta – While blood may not bond us, I see you both as sisters and appreciate your role in my life. Even if we don’t see each other often, you are both incredible women and I have enjoyed watching you both become independent. Tanty, you make me prouder every day. Danta, thanks for your constant positivity.
Brothers
Albert – I don’t even know where to start. You are beyond selfless and have gone so far above and beyond for me for no reason, that I will be forever appreciative. When we were kids, I would always wait in anticipation for you to come visit, speaking like a New Yorker months after your departure. Even though time had passed where we didn’t talk much, you took me in when I moved to NYC and have been incredible since. Your generosity is unmatched and borderline doesn’t make sense. It has made me a better person by association. Thanks you, Albert. We may be biologically cousins, but we are actually brothers.
Budi – First off, please come back from Indonesia and visit. I miss you, as do many others. While I haven’t actually seen you this year, I still appreciate what you have done for me in the past and while I may miss your IMs often, I really do appreciate those constant attempts. Oh, and sorry for accidently FaceTiming you in the middle of that conference, but your face was priceless trying to turn it off as I was obliviously saying “Where are you?” when I am sure everyone heard.
Close Friends
Asmite – It has been funny watching each other’s struggles this year, huh? Haha. I won’t get into the specifics here, but thanks for keeping me in check when I needed that. Someone needed to be blunt with me, because I can be irrational at times. Thanks for being my soundboard to throw any nonsense at and not being too harsh. You are hilarious, even if you think people are just humoring you sometimes. Thanks for lightening the mood all those times I really needed it.
Elliott – It is funny how you suddenly became one of my best friends. Who would have ever seen that one coming?! Haha. We are so opposite, yet exactly the same. Thanks for investing as much time as you have into listening to me and calling me out on being wack when I continuously refused to do so myself. I am glad I was able to help mellow you out in manic moments, as well. Sometimes that helped distract me in a good way (sorry if that makes my efforts seem less sincere or genuine). You have been great and it won’t be soon forgotten.
Good Friends
Jeremy – Thanks for having faith in me and always having my back.
Camille – Thanks for never turning your back on me despite some turbulence we may have had. I know that our friendship may seem lopsided sometimes, but my distance isn’t a reflection on you, I appreciate your efforts and thank you for being there.
Dave + Nicole; Dan + Aliyah; Greg + Cari; Randy + Meghan – My favorite couples <3. It has been amazing seeing the longevity of most of your relationships, with Dave/Nicole’s & Randy/Meghan’s originating since I was a kid. I could probably list you each individually, not just as couples but as individuals, so don’t be insulted that I bundled you all. You are all amazing people that I am honored to call friends. You have all done and are doing some incredible things. Special shout out to Belle too...and all your cats, haha. From Kleman Plaza to this? It’s been an interesting one to say the least.
Christina – Thanks for reminding me that some connections transcend specific conditions or geographic boundaries or even regular communication.
Frank Mare – Thanks for looking out for me and being a good friend, Frank. I want you to know I appreciate you.
Leo Gutman – I know I rag on you all the time, but thanks for being you and holding it down. You keep it real, doggie, and I back that.
Rick Sulz – You have always backed me for some reason and have put a lot of trust into me and hooked me up a lot over the years. Thanks a lot, buddy; It hasn’t been forgotten.
Naysayers
Bumgarner, Angel, Vincent, Tim, Jerry, Hadrien, Jon – You guys have been incredible and I appreciate your support regardless of the state of Naysayer. I back all of your skating 100% and will regardless of you skating for Naysayer or not. Thanks for what you have done for the brand.
Eugene Kang – You have always been my biggest supporter with Naysayer and gave me honest feedback always. Thanks so much for that. You are the best, Eugene.
Amy Gunther – Thanks so much for always looking after me, not just with Naysayer stuff, but also just as a local and friend. I’ll always back you and KCDC.
Friend’s Afar
Orly – Dude, it’s been like 15 years since I first went into Phaze One and got that device that changed my life. Thanks for putting up with me lurking so much as a kid and giving me a job and trusting me with the shop when you went away to Spain and for being a great friend always.
Leo Valls – Even though we don’t get to see each other often, you are a good friend and I appreciate all the time we do get to hang, regardless if it is in Bordeaux, Paris, San Francisco, or NYC.
Mike Tuten – Nickel Butt! You have always been consistent with me and I appreciate that. Be it painting together, you tattooing me, talking, or watching gnarly movies like Holy Mountain, you kill it in life, Mike.
Broderick – Dude, hit me up when you come to NYC next time. We are friends, remember? Haha.
Melanie – Aw, Melanie! Things have changed a lot since we used to be the only two at the skatepark at 7am in Tallahassee to now. From you visiting me up here like 7 or 8 years ago, to me vising you in San Diego, to you moving to PA and getting married, to now…you are moving across the country again?! Visit me again before, please!
Skateboarders
Tarela – Thanks for almost always being down to come out and film. It is refreshing to have someone motivated, even if sometimes I get a little stressed and am not the nicest dude, haha. I appreciate it, sincerely.
Allen Ying – Allen, it has been an honor to watch all the dedication you have put into everything you do. From keeping 43 alive, to taking photos, to even buying food. It is a noble quality that is rare these days. Thanks for making me a part of 43, regardless of my distance and unavailability sometimes.
Ben Kilpatrick – I miss you, buddy. You are one my favorite photographers and people. I know we have butted heads in the past, but I back you completely.
Darnell Scott, Chris Martin, Marco Hernandez – Thanks for spending the time to shoot photos of me dudes. You back my skating and it means a lot to me. It has been a pleasure watching you all develop your own photo styles.
Colin, DJ, TJ, Igor – Thanks for spending the time you have to film me, dudes. I know sometimes it might take me a minute to land my dumb tricks, but it usually works out eventually, so thanks for the patience.
Miscellaneous
Jessica – You inspire me. Not only in my yoga practice and application to life, but in generosity and positivity. You have looked out for me and my practice so much, through so much time. I appreciate you for that, Jess.
Dro – I don’t know how sustainable my renewed hype for bboying would have been without you. Thanks for the stoke and helping to push me back to where I was. I’m not there, but working on it…
Laetitia – It is funny to think about meeting that night long ago when I was dressed as robot to where we are now. Who would have though? The world works in funny ways. From NYC to Paris (twice) and back. It has been a bit of an adventure, and there is much more to come. I will keep this one brief because some things are better left unspoken.
Josephine – There is so much to say here, though much has been said personally, so I won’t reiterate much. Thanks for being in my life. While things have changed between us, you are an incredible part of my life and make me strive to be the best person I can. Your qualities are unmatched and I look forward to seeing you put a strangle hold on life and forcing it to be exactly what you want it to be and nothing less.
Parents
Mom – I know things have been tough for you lately and you really wanted me around, but I am sorry I have been somewhat unavailable. As you know I have been going through my own issues and it has selfishly made me insensitive to yours. I have tried but I know I haven’t been there for you the way I had in the past. It’ll get back to that soon enough. Sometimes when I feel somewhat alone and lost, your consistent calls and random texts saying you love me help ground me and warm my soul. You are an amazing woman and each challenge you make it though is another validation of your strength and courage. You have always made me proud and are a huge part of the person I have become. Remember that always.
Dad – You have always been the unmoving rock. Stable and unwavering. But even rocks are susceptible to weather and erosion. Just as water can get into the cracks and weaken, life can do the same. I know this year has been tough for you and sometimes it is hard to stay as strong as you would wish, but you have been doing great, dad. You have tried to take on everything single-handedly and have done a pretty good job, but (as I have said before), we are all here for you, even if only for moral support. Times like these are what really showcase your character, and you are beaming. Thanks for everything, Baba.
Sisters
Cathey – We may not speak so much these days but I am proud of what you have done and who you are still becoming. We used to fight pretty bad as kids, so I am glad that we became much closer later on. You are a lovely older sister. I would also like to thank you for being a great mom to Jasmine, she is the best niece I could have hoped for. Also, shout out to Mike for being a great compliment to your life. He is hilarious and a good influence.
Parvaneh – Isn’t it funny to think back to when we both sharing a room in that trailer in the middle of the woods or learning how to turn the water back on illegally and imagine where either of us would end up. I don’t think I would have seen us where we are, respectively. It has been a bumpy ride, but we have made it to our separate destinations relatively unscathed. Thanks for giving me Eman, The Worm, and Jah as 3 beautiful nephews and for hanging in there when all seemed lost.
Tanty + Danta – While blood may not bond us, I see you both as sisters and appreciate your role in my life. Even if we don’t see each other often, you are both incredible women and I have enjoyed watching you both become independent. Tanty, you make me prouder every day. Danta, thanks for your constant positivity.
Brothers
Albert – I don’t even know where to start. You are beyond selfless and have gone so far above and beyond for me for no reason, that I will be forever appreciative. When we were kids, I would always wait in anticipation for you to come visit, speaking like a New Yorker months after your departure. Even though time had passed where we didn’t talk much, you took me in when I moved to NYC and have been incredible since. Your generosity is unmatched and borderline doesn’t make sense. It has made me a better person by association. Thanks you, Albert. We may be biologically cousins, but we are actually brothers.
Budi – First off, please come back from Indonesia and visit. I miss you, as do many others. While I haven’t actually seen you this year, I still appreciate what you have done for me in the past and while I may miss your IMs often, I really do appreciate those constant attempts. Oh, and sorry for accidently FaceTiming you in the middle of that conference, but your face was priceless trying to turn it off as I was obliviously saying “Where are you?” when I am sure everyone heard.
Close Friends
Asmite – It has been funny watching each other’s struggles this year, huh? Haha. I won’t get into the specifics here, but thanks for keeping me in check when I needed that. Someone needed to be blunt with me, because I can be irrational at times. Thanks for being my soundboard to throw any nonsense at and not being too harsh. You are hilarious, even if you think people are just humoring you sometimes. Thanks for lightening the mood all those times I really needed it.
Elliott – It is funny how you suddenly became one of my best friends. Who would have ever seen that one coming?! Haha. We are so opposite, yet exactly the same. Thanks for investing as much time as you have into listening to me and calling me out on being wack when I continuously refused to do so myself. I am glad I was able to help mellow you out in manic moments, as well. Sometimes that helped distract me in a good way (sorry if that makes my efforts seem less sincere or genuine). You have been great and it won’t be soon forgotten.
Good Friends
Jeremy – Thanks for having faith in me and always having my back.
Camille – Thanks for never turning your back on me despite some turbulence we may have had. I know that our friendship may seem lopsided sometimes, but my distance isn’t a reflection on you, I appreciate your efforts and thank you for being there.
Dave + Nicole; Dan + Aliyah; Greg + Cari; Randy + Meghan – My favorite couples <3. It has been amazing seeing the longevity of most of your relationships, with Dave/Nicole’s & Randy/Meghan’s originating since I was a kid. I could probably list you each individually, not just as couples but as individuals, so don’t be insulted that I bundled you all. You are all amazing people that I am honored to call friends. You have all done and are doing some incredible things. Special shout out to Belle too...and all your cats, haha. From Kleman Plaza to this? It’s been an interesting one to say the least.
Christina – Thanks for reminding me that some connections transcend specific conditions or geographic boundaries or even regular communication.
Frank Mare – Thanks for looking out for me and being a good friend, Frank. I want you to know I appreciate you.
Leo Gutman – I know I rag on you all the time, but thanks for being you and holding it down. You keep it real, doggie, and I back that.
Rick Sulz – You have always backed me for some reason and have put a lot of trust into me and hooked me up a lot over the years. Thanks a lot, buddy; It hasn’t been forgotten.
Naysayers
Bumgarner, Angel, Vincent, Tim, Jerry, Hadrien, Jon – You guys have been incredible and I appreciate your support regardless of the state of Naysayer. I back all of your skating 100% and will regardless of you skating for Naysayer or not. Thanks for what you have done for the brand.
Eugene Kang – You have always been my biggest supporter with Naysayer and gave me honest feedback always. Thanks so much for that. You are the best, Eugene.
Amy Gunther – Thanks so much for always looking after me, not just with Naysayer stuff, but also just as a local and friend. I’ll always back you and KCDC.
Friend’s Afar
Orly – Dude, it’s been like 15 years since I first went into Phaze One and got that device that changed my life. Thanks for putting up with me lurking so much as a kid and giving me a job and trusting me with the shop when you went away to Spain and for being a great friend always.
Leo Valls – Even though we don’t get to see each other often, you are a good friend and I appreciate all the time we do get to hang, regardless if it is in Bordeaux, Paris, San Francisco, or NYC.
Mike Tuten – Nickel Butt! You have always been consistent with me and I appreciate that. Be it painting together, you tattooing me, talking, or watching gnarly movies like Holy Mountain, you kill it in life, Mike.
Broderick – Dude, hit me up when you come to NYC next time. We are friends, remember? Haha.
Melanie – Aw, Melanie! Things have changed a lot since we used to be the only two at the skatepark at 7am in Tallahassee to now. From you visiting me up here like 7 or 8 years ago, to me vising you in San Diego, to you moving to PA and getting married, to now…you are moving across the country again?! Visit me again before, please!
Skateboarders
Tarela – Thanks for almost always being down to come out and film. It is refreshing to have someone motivated, even if sometimes I get a little stressed and am not the nicest dude, haha. I appreciate it, sincerely.
Allen Ying – Allen, it has been an honor to watch all the dedication you have put into everything you do. From keeping 43 alive, to taking photos, to even buying food. It is a noble quality that is rare these days. Thanks for making me a part of 43, regardless of my distance and unavailability sometimes.
Ben Kilpatrick – I miss you, buddy. You are one my favorite photographers and people. I know we have butted heads in the past, but I back you completely.
Darnell Scott, Chris Martin, Marco Hernandez – Thanks for spending the time to shoot photos of me dudes. You back my skating and it means a lot to me. It has been a pleasure watching you all develop your own photo styles.
Colin, DJ, TJ, Igor – Thanks for spending the time you have to film me, dudes. I know sometimes it might take me a minute to land my dumb tricks, but it usually works out eventually, so thanks for the patience.
Miscellaneous
Jessica – You inspire me. Not only in my yoga practice and application to life, but in generosity and positivity. You have looked out for me and my practice so much, through so much time. I appreciate you for that, Jess.
Dro – I don’t know how sustainable my renewed hype for bboying would have been without you. Thanks for the stoke and helping to push me back to where I was. I’m not there, but working on it…
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Saturday, July 21, 2012
Haterz
The term "hater" has been annoying more and more by the year. Sure, it is fun to use it in jest, but that is mostly to make fun of those that use it sincerely. Here are some reasons why I think that term is dumb, as are those who use it...as directed to those of you who use it.
1.) Nobody is hating on you. What you fail to realize is that, frankly, nobody cares enough about you or what you are doing to hate. Your ego is fabricating this 'hate' to justify your importance and impact on the world (which is non-existent).
2.) You are wack and simply being called out on such. "Now whoever tried to call you on your bullshit's a hater?!" - Hopsin. There are people people who agree and disagree with anything that all of us do, sure. But when you are obviously blowing it or are simply wack, you will be called out on it. You chalk it up to people being "haters" to hide from the fact that real recognize real.
3.) Back to your ego...you love haters? If you have haters, you must be doing something right? I'm sure you have plenty of DGK, Shake Junt, or whatever other corny company's gear that validates this garbage, but it doesn't change the fact that you are a kook. People that wear that stuff just want to pretend that they have 'haters' to feel important. You are just corny.
The irony in this post is that I probably come off as a hater to all of the people that this directed at. But...I'm not a hater, I'm a naysayer.
xoxo
1.) Nobody is hating on you. What you fail to realize is that, frankly, nobody cares enough about you or what you are doing to hate. Your ego is fabricating this 'hate' to justify your importance and impact on the world (which is non-existent).
2.) You are wack and simply being called out on such. "Now whoever tried to call you on your bullshit's a hater?!" - Hopsin. There are people people who agree and disagree with anything that all of us do, sure. But when you are obviously blowing it or are simply wack, you will be called out on it. You chalk it up to people being "haters" to hide from the fact that real recognize real.
3.) Back to your ego...you love haters? If you have haters, you must be doing something right? I'm sure you have plenty of DGK, Shake Junt, or whatever other corny company's gear that validates this garbage, but it doesn't change the fact that you are a kook. People that wear that stuff just want to pretend that they have 'haters' to feel important. You are just corny.
The irony in this post is that I probably come off as a hater to all of the people that this directed at. But...I'm not a hater, I'm a naysayer.
xoxo
Monday, November 14, 2011
Existential Thoughts

Laying in bed feeling super sick leads to existential thoughts, apparently. I guess coming face-to-face with mortality will do that to you. Here we go:
When you die, what will you have been known for?
Did you make a mark and affect someone?
If you answered those questions, does that mean you live for others and not yourself?
If so, who is living for you?
Who is making life decisions with the intention of shaping your thoughts of them postmortem?
Are soul-mates real?
If so, did you find yours?
Is that role finite and can it be tarnished?
When were you most happy?
What must you change to make that last answer "now?"
When is it that you feel most comfortable? Why is that?
People say to live everyday like it is your last, but is that really sustainable or even enjoyable. Frankly, I enjoy the reassurance I have from "assuming" each day is not my last. I can also assure you that if I literally lived every day like it was my last, each day following would start off that much more terribly.
Have you ever felt that each day you have gone without love, is a day wasted? When I say "you have gone without love," I mean you have gone without actively receiving love (no, not talking about sex). Because, I would think, that most of us never go a day without loving someone else...perhaps multiple someone elses. If that is the case, how do you know who to love most? Does free will exist or are we programed to love one person?
Feel free to comment.
Passing out in 5...4...3...
Photo: Alison Scarpulla
Saturday, October 01, 2011
Wake Skating Legitimacy
A couple weeks ago this "wake skating" video was posted on Vimeo and I had some mixed feeling about it, and still do. While it is obvious that skateboarding is the raddest of all "board sports" (hate that term, but whatareyagunnado?), all the others are all trying to imitate is as closely as possible. First you has snowboarding introducing skateparks and halfpipes, and eventually taking it to street spots by hitting handrails in snowy towns. Next you had surfing, which is ironic since that is what skateboarding spawned from in the first place, introducing shuvs, 360s, and now kickflips with smaller boards. Then of course there was the snowskate. But now wakeboarders seem like they got tired of being a 5th tier board sport and wanted to get in on this skateboarding thing...so they introduced the wake skate, which is basically a big, weird skateboard deck they are not attached to, getting pulled behind a boat. They do flip tricks that, up until now, only skateboards do.
To be fair, it is pretty impressive. They are doing some legit tricks that are hard to do on a skateboard or otherwise (frontside big heel & frontside bigflip & 720 biggerspin!) and they have the added factor of having to managing a rope in their hands (transferring it from hand to hand and not getting caught in it). It is very impressive, especially upon first view. It also makes you wonder about their consistency and how long it took them to land those trick.
Once you really begin to think about it, however, most of that is the equivalent of skating flatground to them. That have wakes to boost things off of and their landing are relatively soft (minus maybe getting some water up your nose). It is probably annoying that you have to go through the whole process of the boat coming back to get another start and with only one boat, only one person can go at a time.
There were lots of flashy thing and some pretty cool tricks, like the bigspin over canoe. But, regardless of the initial thought of it being pretty inventive, it all comes down to it simply being rich kids doing rich kid things. This is not something that anyone can do, it is a "sport" of the privileged with zero rawness and soul to it. Water sports tend to be reserved for the upper class in general, so this is not something that a kid in the hood can watch and relate to at all. It is something that is done for the simple act of impressing their peers (upper class competitive nature) and showing off to those less fortunate. I will give the dudes a pat on the back for being a little more creative with their money that others of their status, but I do not back wake skating. It is a slap in the face to the pure act of skateboarding...extreme sports jocks.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Whoomp Whoomp
American Juggalo from Sean Dunne on Vimeo.
There was this 23 minute short that has been circulating around the internet for the last couple days, but I just got a chance to check it out. I am super interested in Juggalo culture, as it is so bizarre and ridiculous. This doc gives a give look at what these "ninjas" are like, though I had no idea that there were straight edge juggalos. Here are some quotes that I found worth noting:
“I want to find a skinny ass little bitch, and make her fat, and we can lose weight together. And we’ll bond.”
“I’ll tell you what. A juggalo and a juggalette is someone that is down with a clown until they are dead in the ground. Ughhhh. That’s what’s up.”
“I meet this girl, who is here with her boyfriend, baby daddy…but she likes me better.”
“I’ll be here all fucking day, doing the same shit: drinking and blowing stuff up.”
“I met a brain surgeon here. He was tripping on acid.”
“I heard an old man tell me that there was nothing good left in the world. And I actually believed that shit, until I came here and seen alllllllllllllll the titties. All the weed. All the fast food. I mean, this shit the bomb.”
“It says titties for a dollar. My boyfriend wrote it. Yeah, I show my titties to everyone.”
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